Find Your Why #Recovery

I have been thinking of making a blog for years, and I've actually also had this blog since 2023, I just haven't posted anything on it. Honestly, I don't think anyone will ever read it, but I still need a safe space, where I can write anything and everything that's on my mind. I think I should introduce myself, in case someone actually reads this blog someday? My name is Alexandra, I'm in my 20's, from a small country in Europe, and I battle autism, anxiety and an anorexia-relapse. I currently live in a supported living community, and I'm also on disability pension, because of my mental health. While I'm grateful I can get something to support myself financially, then I want to be able to make my own money. This is why I have opened my own small business: SaintLiberataVintage. I am selling vintage clothing in that shop. I wasn't supposed to mention it in this post, because I didn't wanted to promote myself in this post... Well, I am soon working on becoming a professional ballerina, dancer, and artistic athlete - within many styles and disciplines. I've had quite a break from everything, but I will actually return to a (now full-time) ballet program, meaning I will be dancing fifty+ hours per week from mid April. My goal is also to do the other dance and sports fifty+ hours per week, so a total of a hundred+ hours per week with the ballet. I have discovered I can't live without ballet, dance and sports and that I want to take it to a professional level.

I also have some other passions! I want to become a professional model, actress (in a theater - and maybe even in small movies!), nail technician, fashion designer, and artist. I also play music (piano, ukulele and violin, but I'll get into more instruments!), and I have a few hobbies, and I want more hobbies. My hobbies are: reformer pilates, hot yoga, acroyoga, reading, journaling, and I want to take up line dancing, knitting, crocheting, and maybe even try something completely new, such as paddle tennis or stand up paddle. It's funny, because I have wanted to give up so many times in my life, yet I haven't given up. I've always hold onto hope, and I'm really grateful for that, even when I'm struggling a lot. There is this actor, who has made my life a lot more manageable, and he doesn't even know it. It might sound completely insane, but he has helped me in my darkest times, and I'm so grateful for him being him, and besides being an actor, he's actually a multi-talent. He is also an artist, and he draws this amazing figures, which I have decided I want to get a tattoo of. This tattoo will remind me to keep going, even when I want nothing but to give up. You can see some of his drawings below, and otherwise you can find more of his work HERE. Also, this actor is also an author of children's books, which I find very cool, and very inspiring. I actually got one of his books, which you can also see below! You can also buy his books HERE!